Funny How Time Changes Everything

I haven't even thought to write here for so long.
I don't even write anymore.
I'm looking at the posts that I know came from me, but that isn't a person I recognize anymore.
So much has happened between then and now.....It's really hard for me to come to terms with how much it changed me.
I've lost another close friend to death just in November and it just gets more and more strange. To feel nothing most of the time. To see the same transpiring of events that happens through groups of people when someone passes away. The negativity, the love, the competition, the memories and gathering of old friends but for the wrong reasons. Again.
I think after she left and walked out the front door for good, I changed forever. A part of me knew that I had lost something real. Something I might not ever find again, and something I was so undeserving of and took for granted.
I didn't know lows like the the ones I have seen existed. I didn't know someone could be alive in such a state and still somehow be alive. I have no reason to be here still. I woke up after something I shouldn't have woken up from.
Honestly, just like this was a conversation, I don't want to write anymore about it after letting that last paragraph out.
I don't know what else to say. Nothing has seemed to work out the way we planned.

Just another winter

I can feel it in my bones, in my heart, in my soul.....

Fall and winter are coming, and it never goes well.

Maybe a self fulfilling prophecy, but this feeling that comes as soon

as it starts getting cold just comes on its own. 

This feeling of despair and loneliness just comes with the seasons.

Every time is see leaves falling from tree's I have the uncontrollable urge to talk to people

that I can't talk to anymore. 

Too many friends that turned to enemies, too many friends gone forever.

To try and explain what happens with letters is almost impossible. 

24 years of life have done this. I could write a novel trying to start at the beginning with everything

that has gotten me here, all the events that could be considered milestones, or forks in the road. 

Self pity's meaningless 

Preview of my shoot with Sarah at Stone Cliff Winery, at the Port of Dubuque.

For the full shoot check out http://www.flickr.com/photos/bradnoonan

and check out my website www.bradnoonanphotography.com

or my Facebook page http://www.facebook.com/bradnoonanphotography

If you're looking for wedding photos from Katie and Kyle's Wedding, either follow the information on the ordering cards that were placed on the tables, or email me at brad12488@gmail.com for details on how to view and order photos!

Otherwise keep checking back for more updates!

Katie & Kyle

Katie and Kyle got married at St. Joseph's in Dubuque, IA. You couldn't even tell that it was the end of October, the day turned out perfect, and the weather was even better.

Still in the process of editing, but I loved how they turned out and am so excited that I decided to put a preview of them up!

Update!

It's getting to that time of year, when photography business starts to slow down.

Just finished shooting Machine Gun Kelly for Prime Social Group, you can view the photos from that show here:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/bradnoonan/sets/72157627814114442/

It's been a slow year...

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This Photograph is Proof

This is one of the first photos I took....

I remember getting up early....

Going out to just take photos....

I had to....I needed to.....

To be honest it's been a long time since I've picked up my camera and done anything that I felt made me happy. I can't remember the last time I needed to take a picture....

The need to take a photo....it used to be so strong.....

It's like my photography has become a job that I hate waking up to do....

It's been a lot of disappointments, ups and down, and I'm still not even close to "making it", It feels like I was better off when I started...the ambition, the drive....the inspiration...

I lost it somewhere along the way....but I want it back....

I went through all my photos on my hard drive....it was more than just a look at my progress as a photographer, it was a look at my progress as a person, and all the places and changes that have taken place.....

So much is different, so much is gone....

but so much is still here to be thankful for....

being blessed with an amazing family....

making it out of points in my life that I didn't think I could make it through.

Here I am, still here, still with more than I'm deserving of.....

I am one of the worst people with counting my blessings....

but I am right now....and it's overwhelming.

It's time to start remembering why I picked up a camera to begin with....

I need to get back to that place....and remember everything thats gotten me here

where I came from.....

please take a look at my website if you get the chance...

and recommend it to a friend....

http://www.bradnoonanphotography.com

http://www.facebook.com/bradnoonanphotography

Bored to Death....HAHAHAHAHAHa

Get it....bored to death....

HA.